moving the big chair in the little truck since 1978

thanks...but there's totally no way to contest it, because it's all true. i'm screwing up constantly and making dumb mistakes and i should be way way way better than i am. of course, i can't tell my boss that this is all because 1) my brain isn't always as nice to me as it could be, and 2) i don't want to be here, and more often than not, my thoughts are literally hundreds of miles away. oh, and the fact that i have to interrupt my work all the time to cover for other people might have something to do with it. :P but those all sound like lame, whiny excuses. better to just nod and try not to cry and just get it over with.

No matter what they say at work I know you are the best.
I have faith that they'll see enough of your virtues to keep you till you tell them you are leaving for Chicago. Have I mentioned that you are great?

don't let them make you feel like a failure. don't let them. i had a job when i first moved here to northampton that truly was glorified slave (well not very glorified) to a bunch of snobby designers. i took out the trash... i answered the phone... i made their coffee... i cleaned up after them. sometimes i had to throw away a piece of garbage that was sitting on the counter right above the wastebasket! they couldn't be bothered to no anything for themselves, even if it was within arms reach. and i hated it so very very much. i tried so hard to bear it, and to do my job without complaint, only to be told at my three-month review that everyone thought i was incompetent, whiny and had a bad attitude. and it really wrecked me. i mean... how much of an idiot must i be to fail at a job like that! and i stayed there out of fear of unemployment, and let them make me feel that way... determined to put on a smile and make them see my "good" attitude. yet every morning i felt like i might vomit, just thinking about going to work.

they wrecked me. and then a miracle happened... i got laid off with much of the rest of the company. now i work at a much much harder job where everyone thinks i am amazing. and that is how it is supposed to be for you to.

don't let them get to you. you are so much greater than they could even dream of being. and get out as fast as you can.

m

"supposed to be fore you to"=too. damn typos when i'm trying to be eloquent. bleah.