everyone read this

I�ve had a hard time of it recently. Those of you who know me know about my depression, diabetes, etc, etc. in the way of things I�ve not long been a fruhead, but not long after I made my account here I could be seen regularly walling or messaging. It wasn�t long before some of you became really dear to me, but being the person that I am I assumed it was pretty much one sided. You see, a lot of the people that are around me are the kind of people that could say they think you�re awesome, but then they�d go trash you behind your back. So I got to the point where I was hardened to the fact that some people ARE what they seem, some people WILL just love you and some times you can open your heart and let people in. People. The people. Seeing as I had grown to love you I set out to try to meet you. (By the way� why do all of you great people have to live so far away? And why haven�t we developed �transporters� yet?) �

This summer I was to go to FRFF, to finally huggle and snuggle all the people my soul had been crying for� but then I got sick and my depression was at a low and I hadn�t the money for the trip. Unbeknownst to me my bro (Bruce Rose) circulated a �card� and had as many frupeeps sign it as he could. It was a FRFF flyer scrawled with little notes from the people I still can�t wait to see. I just got that card today, after I got told by the university that I will not be getting any financial aid, because I don�t have financial aid I can�t have the job at the art gallery because its work study, I need surgery� but on top of it all I�m grinning like a fool. Thank you bro and all the rest.

Tearily-

Your zil

P.S. I didn't nessisarily think thisshould go in "random drivel" but it didn't fit the others either... oh well.

*hugs*
well, what more can I say?
~J~