breath the darkness away.

i like it :). you convey the mood well

the mood of almost every night I sit for hours trying to sleep.... and never do.

i understand dude. i don't have the compulsions as much, but i get the savage images. wrists bleeding *flash* my family is dead *flash* i've got the baby in my arms and i'm falling down a flight of stairs *flash* the cold dead flesh of my father in the coffin *flash* screaming and crying... and... *shakes self* (i didn't capture all the flashes in that sequence, just the ones that i could "see" while typing with my eyes shut)

i can break out of it if i catch it in time. but mixed with low energy from skipping meals, lethargy from lack of any physical activity, long-term depression and insomnia... it can be brutal.

personally, writing (poetry) feels like it helps me. you?