yes I am replying to my own diary entry... because I am adicted to writing them but I don't want to have a thousand a day... because I don't want to take up all the space on the recent diary entries hoobajoob... yes I'm nuerotic.
anyway, I've been on the phone all day with the Americorps people and... it look like yet again I've fucked myself. I can't do it. and I don't have a plan B because I'm retarded. I can't stay in my home town area... I think it'll kill me... or I'll end up living in a box down byt he river.... talking to myself and wearing aluminum foil on my head.
help me.
